It seems January is the month for making changes and choices.
Today I found myself making a big choice. For a change of pace, this wasn’t something forced upon me by life or a diagnosis. In fact, this choice was all about taking control. The past couple of months have felt quite out of my control, where my body took charge and my brain was just along for the ride. So it was time to change that, and I took control – I made a choice, I made a change.
Perhaps oddly, this wasn’t something I have thought about for a long time. Usually I spend ages going back and forth with every decision – I still can’t decide if I should cut my hair short again (it currently reaches my lower back). But this? It came up as a random though one day, and now a week later, I decided – yes.
I don’t know if this change will be for a few months, years, or the rest of my life. I guess time will tell. But one thing is certain, I feel in control again, and that feels great.